Sabar Manusia Ada Limit
Terkurung Untuk Yang Ke Entah Berapa Kalinya...
Hi all, I have a few things to share with you gais. Welcome to my page. Berhabuk bersawang dah. Sejak2 dah tua ni, aku takde mood dah nak menaip. Walaupun itu adalah my passion (menaip tanpa hala tuju) hahaha. Jangan tidur kay, maybe panjang I nak berceloteh. Selamat membaca ~
1.0 FMCO
As at today, we, Malaysian in Malaysia, sedang terkurung. Perintah Berkurung. Total Lockdown. Yes, you just name it. Itu lah kami skrg ni. Government announced FULL MOVEMENT CONTROL ORDER aka FMCO. Last year MCO je. Kes sangat tinggi dan mengakibatkan kerajaan kene juga buat FMCO. Malangnya masih ada banyak sektor yg bekerja. Huhu
You gais can refer here to check the case everyday > @KKMPutrajaya
Malaysia totally sick. Aku taktahu cmne management nya, but me as rakyat marhaen yg biasa ni, just believe in government and serah diri jelah. Depa nak PKP? PKPD? PKPP? PKPKPKPKPKPK segala, itsoke, ku turuti sahaja lah asalkan demi keselamatan.
FMCO implemented on 1st June 2021 aritu. Aku kan essential services kauuu, jangan main2. Aku kene lah jugak keje. Walaupun, sbnrnye kami boleh je WFH #tiber yelah aku mengaku aku essential services dan memang diperlukan untuk ke tempat keje. “Tanpa kehadiran beliau, perkhidmatan penting perbankan (essential banking services) dari jabatan ini mungkin terganggu dan memudaratkan perintah larangan yang sedia ada” Ko nampak kan? Betapa pentingnya aku? Huhu, sis bangga kejap. Cehhh, so, aku bekerja jelah seperti biasa *peace*
2.0 RAYA
For your information, today 11/06/2021 is Syawal 29 but I and husband got no chance to pergi beraya. Believe me or not? You will trust me. I'll let you think and think and assume. Itsoke thats alright, I’m good for that, I’m totally okay but I'm sorry because I’m too sad due to unfair. Unfair - how? Ramai je sbrnye manusia degil tak paham bahasa depa p rentas daerah / negeri demi kepentingan sendiri. Not sure how they pass and get the approval - either because cable or so whatever - ahh malas pikir. Sakit hati. I can’t visit my my parents-in-law, I can’t meet my family, I can’t balik kampung. This year mmg kami tak dgr langsung lagu "balik kampung" by Allahyarham Sudirman. Weird? Creepy? Yes, it is. I still terperuk kat rumah and pandang muka roommate. Kuih raya makan kat opis. Haha, I raya with my colleagues jelah. I hope, Malaysian yg lain jangan lah selfish mcm Malaysian yg lain-lain tu.
3.0 GRATEFUL / BERSYUKUR
But still, bersyukur dengan kerja yg masih ada. I still love my job. First job yg aku jaga sangat2. This passion or this attitude is actually comes from my ex-boss (Kak Suzie). She's really something. Even now, she is happy kat rumah with kids and husband, but I masih agungkan dia dalam hati I. She is so special to me. Yes, mmg my family jenis yg discipline kerja, but still it’s depends on who drives you to kejar your cita-cita. I guess I never share with you gais ekk how I get my position now? Itsoke lah, later I share ya. Huhu. Harini mmg special sbb I nak share banyak bende but still kene minimise kan, kang korang oshan icang lakk.
Papepun, aku bersyukur masih ada kerja, masih boleh bayar commitment, masih boleh makan, masih boleh membantu org lain (walaupun tak banyak) tp aku kene jugak mention sbb korang perlu tahu walaupun korang taknak tahu, ehh ada aku kesah?
At the same time, actually kejadian Palestine diserang Zi*nist durjana pada last Ramadhan. Tu pun jadikan pengajaran untuk kita terus bersyukur. Beruntung lah duduk di Malaysia. Diharap Malaysia baik2 sahaja. Walaupun sbnrnye anytime je nak kene serang dgn Zi*nist, sbb ada issue aritu org Malaysia dok bambu depa kat socmed. Ko tahu lah kan Malaysian kat rumah, tgh takleh rentas negeri, banyak yg lepak umah. Uihhh jari depa kemahin menari-nari jadi keyboard warriors. Aku yg baca tu pun jadi takut. Bukan aku bangga. Entah lah, susah nak educate org. So, aku jaga diri aku sendiri je lah.
4.0 PHYSICAL
Can you imagine that I gained my weight almost 20kg during this MCO? Pandemic really make me suck. I can’t go out, keje aku memang maaaaaakan je, sambil buat kerja. Takde makanan? Aku order foodpanda - aku order grabfood. Crazy, right? Yes, but not enough. If aku rasa nothing to do, aku akan kunyah pulak all the junk food yg ade kat umah. Perut tak lapar tapi mulut nak mengunyah. Sumpah that time aku takde rasa bersalah or berdosa langsung dgn badan aku. Aku sumbat jelah selagi boleh. Haha funney and dummy. From MCO 1 till MCO 3 aku masih takde kesedaran untuk jaga badan. What a shame. Gais, please doakan aku ya. Doakan aku dapat hidayah untuk diet semula. Pffffttttt
5.0 MENTAL / EMOTIONAL HEALTH
People say if you wish to know either you have hidden mental problem, you have to sit quietly in your room for a long time with do nothing. You can stand or not? If you unable to control you anger, ya you have to be careful. Hahahaha better you cepat2 buat appointment with therapist - Ramai org Malaysia ni yg sakit tapi kita taktahu. Sakit mental ni boleh disebabkan you sendiri, or disebabkan persekitaran, or because of workload - overload and etc. Banyak sangat punca atau asbab. So, jangan malu jumpa psychiatrist - it doesn't mean you're sick. Prevent is better than cure. Remember?
Personally, alhamdulillah sepanjang I ada roommate yg baik ni, I mmg berteman and I got no chance to be alone. Ehh yeke? Ehh ada jugak lah aku alone, masa dia keje, yedak? Tp tak consider alone pun. Sebab dia keje sebelah aku je.
But you gais, please, mental and emotional ni kalau salah dipraktik kan, boleh membawa padah ya. Tolong lah jaga your mental health, okay? Kalau malu nak jumpa psychiatrist, carilah bestfriend yg boleh dipercayai - macam spouse ke. Okay.. Don't keep yourself. Tak elok.
6.0 SNOW WHITE
Gais, doakan my snow white kembali sihat. Pulihkan semangat dia untuk terus berjuang. Hilangkan covid-19 punya virus dalam diri dia. Kembalikan dia ke pangkuan kami dgn sihat dan selamat. Kami perlukan dia dan sayangkan dia sepenuh hati. #covid19fighter ! I love my snow white so much. You gais can follow her here : Mokrocka's Snow White
I can't share her picture, unless she allows me to.
Please stay safe beautiful and handsome people, take care and sayonara ~
PKP PKPB PKPD #covid19
PKP PKPB PKPD PKPK boleh gila jadinya.
Hi assalamualaikum semua, bosan sikit lah topik kali ni, Sebosan aku yg terperap kat rumah. Im so jelez kayy dgn dengan Australia yg dah clear and 0 case from this pandemic. They can live normal seperti dulu. Since kita yg kat Malaysia ni masih mengadap banyak kes ari2.
Penat, penat nak educate "manusia" supaya duduk rumah. Btw, all these BS PKP PKPB PKPD ni hanya effective to rakyat je. Untuk "sekian sekian manusia" (you know what I mean) tak apply pun, depa still lagi langgaq. Paling sedih aritu cucu dia buat birthday party and okay je, boleh jemput org mai umah. Kata takleh rentas daerah. Hehh sedih pulak bila fikir.
March till end of May terperap kat rumah, raya alhamdulillah lepas balik Sepang (sbb boleh rentas daerah) tapi tak boleh balik Johor lagi that time. Kes dah makin okay taht time, dah berkurang and frontliners pun dah start tarik nafas lega. And suddenly, boom ! Naik melonjak2 after "event" berlaku and.. Everyday ade kes baharu almost 4digits. EVERYDAY, paling sikit pun 300, ko tak rasa gila?
Wehh kalau aku cter jadi sedih and penat and rasa nak nangis 24jam.
But still aku bersyukur laaaa aku kat KL ni belum gila lagi terperuk kat rumah, even PKPB aku still dibenarkan kerja sbb essential services. But kau faham tak penat tu ape? PENAT dan PARANOID.
Semua bende serba tak kene. Jum lah kita terukan usaha #kitajagakita tu, aku nak hidup kembali normal. Nak balik kampung, rindu my family and family-in-law. Aku rindu nak makan-makan best..
#klahbye
C.O.R.O.N.A.V.I.R.U.S
As you know, start end of February 2020 dunia dikejutkan dengan virus corona ni or dikenali as
#COVID19 sbb virus ni sbnrnye dah ada since 2019. Star detect atau start ada kes adalah drpd Wuhan China. Then, terus spread ke seluruh dunia. Seperti yg kita sedia maklum, rakyat China terlalu ramai dan depa sangat berpengaruh dalam semua ekonomi kat dunia ni. Since Malaysia pun sama, antara penyumbang ekonomi kita adalah mereka. Serious tergugat betul ye dan antara yg terlibat adalah sektor pelancongan di Langkawi once Malaysia dah larang rakyat China dtg negara kita. Langkawi menawarkan sehingga 70% diskaun untuk perhotelan dan lain2.
Aku taknak ulas pasal ekonomi, aku just nak ulas ape yg berlaku kat diri aku, sbb sat lagi kalau salah fakta aku takkene kecam. #COVID19 serious bagi impact yg sangat sangat sangat gila kat Malaysia, as at todate 22/03/2020 and now 1420hrs dah ade 9kes kematian. Serious kan? Sangat serious, bende takleh buat main. Start 18/03/2020 aritu PM kite Muhyiddin Yassin dah keluarkan perintah “Movement Control Order(MCO)" to all Malaysian except “Essential Services” yg mmg kene kerja dan takboleh WFH (Work From Home) and unlucky me sbb I antara ES (Essential Services) tu HAHAHHA so aku kene lah keje kan? Yes, aku kene kerja and we got 2days URL (Unrecorded Leave) rotation with colleagues. And yes, aku keje naik train. Risky kan kan kan?
Gais ade nota kaki, PM ada perubahan ya, dimana from Tun M skrg dah bertukar kepada Muhyidin Yassin, yg sepatutnye di gantikan dgn Anwar (kalau ikot kan masa PRU16) year 2018 that time mama ada lagi, yaAllah I missed mama so much, alfatihah.. okay back to our story. May 2018 PH menang majority and that time Tun M yg naik as PM kali kedua at age 93. As promised, dia kata dia nak pegang Malaysia only for 2years after that dia akan bagi to TPM. TPM is Dr Azizah, yes wife to DSAI (Dato Seri Anwar Ibrahim) and DSAI release from prison. And this year ade pergolakkan sikit in political issue and as Agong ade kuasa untuk lantik PM, Muhyiddin Yassin menang majority parliament dan disokong kuat oleh Agong (Vice Versa) and we like it too even masa PRU16 kita tak undi dia pun right. But thats not my point, as long as PM buat keje jaga rakyat macam kita ni, im good je.. And aku nak bagitau PM umum Movement Restriction since 18/03/2020 till 30/03/2020.
Okay start pasal Movement Restriction plakk. Please pardon my susunan cerita due I dah lama gila tinggalkan all this, so ayat pun tunggang terbalik sikit. As long as korang paham aku okay je..
Pastu yg part keje pun mcm malas nak cter tapi ape lah fungsi jari ni rajin tapi malas nak cter yedak? Baik aku story je even sikit kan kan kan.
- Dapat bermanja dgn suami 24/7
- Tak yah gosok baju & tudung & seluar
- Tak yah jalan g train
- Tak yah naik train
- Tak yah ada contact dgn strangers
- Asah skill memasak (ni mmg gila wehh)
- Minyak kete tak isi punn
- DUIT ABES
- DUIT ABES
- DUIT ABES
- susah nak shopping brng dapur (yg masa time hanya 1 wakil keluarga je boleh keluar)
01/01/2020
I really grateful dimana I berada sekarang. As a wife, as a worker, as your service consultant (ahaks), as a daughter-in-law and etc..
Im very grateful and appreciate what I have right now.
Just to recap, because this pain.. I masih tanggung ;) but trust me, Im okay, I dah redha.. Ive lost abah last (almost) 2 years (10/02/2018) and mama last year (06/01/2019). Berat mata memandang berat lagi bahu yang memikul. I quite regret because I takboleh nak bangga kan mama abah before ni, I takmampu that time, but I believed mama must be a proud person if dia dapat tgk me now. I am who I am, I usaha untuk I ade kat sini skrg. Thanks mama abah untuk pengorbanan yg you guys pernah lakukan for me. Aku terasa lagi pemergian dorang sbb dorang tak sakit teruk pun, dorang pergi dgn tiba-tiba. Aku kehilangan tempat mengadu sekelip mata.
Relationship parents & daughter tak sama ye. Mmg takde ganti.
Husband takleh ganti, siblings takleh ganti, BFF pun takleh ganti. So, what to do? Kita simpan je lah dan berserah.
I hope this 2020 bring me more joy and happiness in my life. Its hard to explain ape yg I tgh lalui now. Idk how to describe because I only can feel it. Im a failure. I might think im a failure. Even actually Im not totally failed pun.
Be a good person, be a good wife, be a good colleague, be a great staff ... and.. be a good mother insyaAllah.
I dah penat dah nak jaga hati semua orang, mana nak jaga hati sendiri lagi, this year no more kayy, sorry if I jadi more mean than last year. Hahahhaa
I love myself.